Words fail me...

So recently my biological father deleted me off of his Facebook... Normally that kind of thing wouldn't bother me but when it's the man that is supposed to be your father it kind of cuts deep. Then I sit here and ask myself the same question I would have asked if I could have put the words together at the age of 2 when he left our family for another.

What did I do to deserve this? I haven't seen him in person in quite some time and we barely talk but I liked having the chance to. There was a chance for us to see him around Easter but my son wasn't comfortable meeting him without my husband who couldn't be there because he was away on a business trip. I'm not going to take my son out of his comfort zone for someone who was never there in his own daughters life.

Part of me feels this is why he cut ties with me. We wouldn't go see him and he's decided that that's it. Please, tell me why for the 2nd time in my life he gets to make that choice? On one hand I'm glad my son didn't meet him and have to deal with the constant ins and outs of his life. On the other, he is my dad and I would have liked to have the chance as an adult to reconnect with him and have him meet my son and husband of 15 years that he has never met. He's the only part of my family I'm not close with. I'm very close with my family and cannot stand when there isn't a connection.

Family is a big deal to me. Since he left while I was so young I've been disconnected from his side of the family as well. I talk to some of my cousins now and follow them on Facebook and cheer them on when I have the chance because whether he likes it or not they are my family.

Unfortunately my husband doesn't have much family left and my family is pretty much all he has left. I wanted to show him how wonderful it is to be a part of a big family. How happy it makes one feel. Sure there is drama but who doesn't have that in their life? I love them all the same and we get through everything together.

I guess I'm done, I just needed to ponder and vent about this situation. As the name of my blog says, Random Thoughts. :) Have a wonderful day!

Favorite quick and easy recipes... GO!

Quick and Easy... Hamburgers, Hot Dogs, Sandwiches... It all gets boring quick. What is a quick and easy recipe you love to fall back on when you need dinner to be done in a hurry?

For us it can be Frito Pie, Tostadas or Pretzel Chicken. :) Pretzel Chicken cooks fast but it's the prep time that drives me nuts. Though prep time isn't really all that bad, maybe it just feels like forever because I want to devour those delicious bites of Chicken.

I don't know, give me some ideas please. Looking for ideas for the YouTube project.

I plan to come back daily. Need to force myself to post. Typing stuff out feels good and I'm curious to see what others have to say too.

Moving in Slow Motion

This day is moving so slow. 5:30 PM can't come fast enough. Need to find my composition book that has all the information my friend and I discussed about this cooking channel. Nothing is ever in the location you think you've put it. :)

Any ideas on what you would like to see us whip up would be greatly appreciated. Hoping to kick this off soon!

YouTube Cooking Channel...

So a friend and I are thinking about whipping up a YouTube Channel. We want to cook on this channel, share recipes, tips and we just don't know where to start. We like making old and new recipes and putting our own twist on them. Showing people at home that you too can cook like those famous celebrity chefs and enjoy the outcome of those meals.

We'll be updating our channel that we have had for years and done nothing with very soon. Once we have it updated and ready to go we will begin to share our recipes and how to make the food. I'm very excited for this new adventure and can't wait to get our channel moving.

I'll be back with updates soon.

TGIF...

I am so happy that Friday is here! This has been one hell of a week and I'm glad to have Friday/Saturday off. Still need to work on my big plan for losing my weight. Spent this week catching up on my shows I watch. Finally caught up for the most part.

Boy is off to school and hubby is off work today. Should be nice to just hang out around the house and not have run around today. I mean, I have stuff I need to get done but I would love to just hang out with my honey.

I might be back later.

Let's get this party started...

We'll see how long I can keep this going. I'd like to start posting often about our crazy every day life. About the choices I make and I want to be held accountable for messing up my diets and all that stuff. I'd like to have a record of what's going on in life so I can come back and reflect.

I went back to work in September 2013 after being out of work for a year and a half and I am loving it! I only hope I'm lucky enough to get to keep this job after the contract I have with them is up. It feels good to be back to work and keeping the house going. Don't know what I will do if I'm out of work come April? I guess go back to volunteering at my sons school. I don't know.

I need to lose weight too and I do plan to discuss that here and post about it. Hopefully by me writing it all down it will help hold me accountable and keep it up.

That's all I'll be posting for tonight but I'll be back soon.